a lot of fortune teller was saying that 2012 is the end of the world...
because of this, I try to read and watch a lot of documentary try to understand the situation...
a lots lots of prove to tell me that 2012, 22nd December is the truth...
but the problem is...
ok!!! now, you know the truth...so what are you gonna to do???
for me...
I'm trying my best to let every day is the perfect day for me...
because have so much experience and hurts...
I keep telling myself that
"I'm not worthy for others to treasure me,
so I don't need caring or loving from others!!!
BUT I need my own caring and loving for MYSELF and for OTHERS"
to have this kind of thinking because....
I really scared I will lose it one day,
once I have it... seriously, I DON'T want to LET GO....
so I better don't ever start it...
maybe it's the other way to protect myself from being hurts AGAIN...