【Random｜隨寫】Regression｜回归

August 1, 2014, Friday

How many of you get to go back to your studied field??? Every end of the year, I always wish to go back to my studied field, and this year July, I'm finally back to my favorite field!!!

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有多少人是毕业于什么就可以就业回自己所读的科目呢？？

每年的年尾，我为自己定下的目标都是让自己回归自己的本行就业，今年的七月，我终于可以回归自己喜爱的行业的上班！！

Last time I've bunch of time to blogging and commenting because I was working in my dad's company which I get to do whatever I want after I've done with my job......but now I'm no longer that free to do whatever I want during the working hours......

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以前的我是没有时间限制的写部落格，那是因为我是跟我爸爸工作，只要完成自己手上的工作，那么我就可以去做自己想做的东西！    也因为回归本行所以我没办法那么自由写部落及到处留言！！   

Maybe some people can comment as "Everything just depends on I want to do it or not, if I really want, I can make the time for it!" Then I can answered you that I seriously don't have the time, not even have time to really relax!! Okay then you may said "I can go back blogging and commenting at home after I've done with my job!" I've tried that before, not that I making conclusion without any trying, for me that lifestyle is so boring and rushing and the worst thing is I don't know what am I rushing for??? Or maybe you said I can do whatever I want first then only do blogging and commenting...that......gonna be like some time around midnight...and seriously that's not gonna to happen because I'm no longer that young, I'm 26 this year, we woman got to know how to take care of ourselves, the most thing that those beauty guru gave is not to sleep later than midnight, and woman who sleep very late, they'll grow much older than those don't!! You might be able to see the efficient right now, but it'll slowly come in your future......you'll look older than those who always sleep on time and doesn't how many and how expensive facial products you used also can't replace that!!!

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做人还是现实一点好，假如你说“事在人为，看我自己要不要分好那个时间罢了！”   我可以回答你说，我上班时间几乎是忙碌到那种闲空的时间都没有，不要说留言还是写部落格好了！！！   假如你说可以上班时间的上班，回家写跟留言就好。。。那我也想问一问，那你的生活不就只剩上班跟部落格？？？   我真的有尝试过，太赶太无聊了！！   还有假如你叫我半夜不睡觉而赶写部落格和留言，不好意思咯！   我都26岁人了，女人不保很快老，所以我都强迫我自己最迟12点前睡觉的，错过让身体新城代谢时间的女人就等于促进自己身体加快老化，再多再贵再贵的保养品都不够！！！

Sorry to say blogging is just part of my interest, not my whole interests and I've never ever thought that it can become part of my job, if you let me choose between blog and my job, I'll choose my job, the job always full of challenging, full of aircraft topics, full of guys and I'm the only female who works as the same job as they do!!!

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很抱歉说。。。部落格只是一个兴趣，我也从来没有想过要把它当成事业，选择于工作和部落格，不好意思。。。我还是会选我的工作，因为那就好像回归从前潜伏在飞机话题的世界，身边的朋友同事都是航空业不断的话题，回归全男性，但只有我一位女性的工作岗位（说就说到那么虚荣，但天天面对那么挑战的工作都不知道是不是犯贱）！！！

The previous two weeks, I forced myself to cut down commenting and blogging time, and used it on reading and learning something new, I found my life became much interesting and full of joy (You might said that I've lost the interest in blogging and commenting......the thing that I don't feel like doing the most is "comment because of comments" -->lots of people are like that, eh!! Think first before you answer, you should know the answer deep in your heart!)

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前一两个星期，我不但狠心的减少留言和写部落格的时间，而用那些时间来看书学其他东西，那真的让我生活充实精彩了许多，不是部落格的生活不精彩（或许你也可以说我已失去那种热忱，那种“因为留言而留言的留言”--->很多人都是这样的，不是吗？？？   先不要说自己没有，自己想一想再回答，答案你自己最清楚！）

Honestly I truly felt that I always "comment because of comments" which makes me very angry and tension, tension as in I'm so not interested to the topic, and I've nothing to comment about it but I still I need to comment then I need to go through the post again and again just to look for something to comment!!! It happens not just one time but many many times, time by time, day by day, week by week and even month by month......I was getting more and more tension and angry I can't anything to comment and I can't continued to the next one......

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诚实坦白的说我也真的为了“留言而留言”让自己非常非常的懊恼，是懊恼到那种找不到留言又再被迫重新读过整篇的那种，让我觉得很气愤又无奈，这让我早上本来心情好好的，然后因为找不到东西留言而需花时间重新读过而搞到我一整天都处于很情绪沸腾的状态，小小事就乱发飙！！！

Obviously as you can see, it's no longer a happiness task for me, every time I look at it, I felt so pressure, stress, tension and also very very angry......what for right??? Nowadays don't we always hunt for happiness, hunt for containment, hunt for joy in life......but now I'm so NOT like that!!!

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很明显的这已不是过去那种乐趣和开心，它已变成我的一种无形很重很重的压力，让我一点都不开心，做人不是要开心的吗？？？   做自己开心的事就是要随心而去做，而不是一直强迫自己，让自己每天都搞到闷骚极了！！！

I don't know how many negative comment I'll received on this, but what I want to say is this's what bothering me the whole time, I guess I rather telling the truth instead scolding at the back, ask yourself, do you really like to see a person is smiling in front of you but talking bad about you at your back???

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我不知道我写这个会得到多少的恶评，但这就是最真实的感受，我也不想一直扮演那种前面“笑笑留言”，然后背后“狂骂”的那种假惺惺的人，试问一下你喜欢这种在你面前笑笑然后在后面骂你的这种人吗？？？

PS: "I'll try my best continue on blogging but won't be comment as much I used to before, hope you understand, thanks in advanced!"

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PS: “我还是会留言和写部落格，只是不会留言很多，请明白我工作的忙碌及情绪管理不够好的心态，谢谢！”